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I'm once again back to making art my number priority. Getting a kick out of the vibes I'm feeling as of late. It's a feeling I've missed, a sense of purpose that had been dulled by pointless and uninspired distractions.
Pointless as social media and the general neediness of the modern internet is, they at the very least have helped me to understand the difference between good fun and bad fun. Grouping up to bully, or bitch about everything, is bad fun. That seems to be the only kind social media users will ever engage in, So I just ignore such foolishness altogether, and only engage in promo for my wares.
Lately, I've been indulging in the endless stream of design guides and tips online, soaking up knowledge like a sponge. But amidst all the learning, I've reaffirmed a fundamental truth: my creative endeavors are for me, and me alone.
I've learned, through painful personal experiences, that chasing external validation is a fool's errand. It's a recipe for heartbreak, a guarantee of disappointment. When you base your creative worth on the fickle opinions of others, you're setting yourself up for a fall. I've been there, and I refuse to go back.
The pursuit of approval is a treacherous path, leading to an unstable foundation. Trends are fleeting, what's "hot" today is tomorrow's discarded fad. Attempting to keep pace with the ever-shifting sands of public opinion is a Sisyphean task. You'll perpetually be left scrambling, trying to catch up, and ultimately, you'll be left holding the bag of unfulfilled expectations.
I'm not catering to the nonsense.
I refuse to let my creativity be dictated by the whims of the crowd. My art is an extension of my soul, a reflection of my inner world.
Don't care about my soul? Good, Fuck you! I'mma keep speaking from it regardless of what you like.
The practice of creativity is a dialogue with myself, a way to process my experiences and express my unique perspective. To compromise that authenticity for the sake of fleeting popularity among the lowest common denominator, would be a betrayal of my core values.
Instead of chasing trends, I'm focusing on honing my skills and developing my own distinct style. I'm exploring new techniques, experimenting with different mediums, and allowing my creativity to flow freely. I'm rediscovering the joy of the creative process, the simple pleasure of bringing something new into the world.
I'm finding that when I create for myself, the work has a depth and resonance that's absent when I'm trying to please others. There's a sense of freedom and authenticity that comes from creating without constraints. It's a feeling that's both liberating and empowering.
This renewed focus on personal expression is not about isolating myself from the world. It's about finding a balance between sharing my work and staying true to my artistic vision. I'm learning to appreciate feedback without letting it dictate my creative direction.
Ultimately, my goal is to create art that I'm proud of, art that resonates with my own soul. At the very least, I wanna make original content, and things related to the media that I myself have always enjoyed.
The Mecha Sonic render at the top of this post is a good example. I made that last year when I was dabbling in a 3d modeling webapp who's name I can't remember...I thought it turned out well, and wouldn't mind trying to make a Sonic Adventure style model using Blender.
If others connect with my art(the stuff I'm selling, or the fanart), that's a bonus. But my primary motivation will always be the intrinsic joy of creation, the satisfaction of bringing my ideas to life. And that, I've always felt, is the only sustainable path to artistic fulfillment.