I'm once again back to making art my number priority. Getting a kick out of the vibes I'm feeling as of late. It's a feeling I've missed, a sense of purpose that had been dulled by pointless and uninspired distractions. Pointless as social media and the general neediness of the modern internet is, they at the very least h…
Showing posts with label Journal. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Journal. Show all posts
3/11/25
3/10/25
The Midnight Blueprint
I despise the fact that nothing in particular seems to keep me up at night. It's the swirling, restless thoughts that plague me when sleep is put on hold Why the fuck am I wide awake at 1 AM? I was about to have a real good time with that actress from that underrated 90s sitcom I had a cross on back in the day. Nah..Not that one, it&#…
3/09/25
The Slow Burn of Wisdom: Lessons in Haste and Caution
I've been noticing a shift lately, a quiet understanding that settles in as we age. It's the transition from reckless abandon to measured consideration. Haste becomes caution , a gradual evolution that's often painful but always necessary. I've seen it in myself, and I've seen it in others: the inevitable slowing down …
3/08/25
The Unanswerable Question: When Do You Let Go?
How many times should I try? That's the question that haunts me every single day. It's the one that keeps me up at night. I constantly wrestle with the decision of when to let go and move on, versus when to keep pushing for the results I crave. It's a frustrating dance, this push and pull between perseverance and acceptance.��…
3/07/25
Focus on your focus, and the rest will come.
That's the mantra I'm finally starting to understand. For so long, I was fixated on the outcome, the grand finale . I wanted to build this perfect reality, a world shaped entirely by my intentions. I envisioned myself lounging in the lap of my accomplishments, drifting off to sleep on a pillow woven from my actions. It sounded idy…
3/04/25
I've learned enough to know it was a massive waste of time and effort. This really smarts.
I'm still grappling with the realization that, ultimately, my grades meant absolutely nothing. Nothing . Look, I wasn't some academic overachiever . I didn't sacrifice my precious gaming time for homework. In fact, I aced tests without much effort. Being able to process information rather easily sometimes is what pride myself on…
3/02/25
"Move Fast and Break Stuff": A Dangerous Game, or a Necessary Risk?
It's a phrase i've heard a lot on pod casts for a few years now. "Move fast and break stuff." That's the Silicon Valley battle cry, the mantra that supposedly built empires. As well as the Dot Com bubble burst, I guess. But let's be real, it's also the silent killer of countless dreams from generations past. S…
3/01/25
My Digital Note-Taking Nightmare (and How I'm Making Note to Fix It)
Aight, so I've realized something seriously messed up about digital note-taking, and it's something I think a lot of us fall into. It's this weird paradox : because I can type so fast, I end up taking worse notes. Sounds counterintuitive, But follow me. See, when you're writing with a pen, you're naturally limited. You …
2/27/25
An informal letter to those participating in Grift Culture, and any activities adjacent to it
Alright, let's have a little chat, specifically directed at those of you riding the grift train. I'm talking directly to the "what if..." crowd, the seminar slingers, the purveyors of empty promises. Look, I get it. I understand the appeal. You're operating on this "what if" model, hoping to strike it rich …
2/25/25
There's always an adequate reaction
Been keeping an eye on the latest happenings in politics lately. Understanding that worry and and endless stream of questions regarding the cognitive abilities of people in both parties isn't going to alter their actions, I won't be checking in with that stuff ever again. Witnessing a near altercation in a department store recentl…
2/23/25
I'm not a repairman, so why am I working on someone elses crap?
I'm in the early stages of making another album. trying a less structured approach this time, because no one else is walking around with caution at the moment. It's always nice to mix things up from time to time anyhow. You keep things from becoming stale that way. As the artificial BS of daily life bakes in the front yard of my di…
2/12/25
We are now in the Expensive Sneaker Era, I think
The US President is enacting all sorts of things that don't at all line up with the caring for legalities of any sort. Kendrick Lamar went to the Super Bowl, and gave a performance that was loaded with subliminals what would surely piss off the the Budweiser flip floppers if they stopped huffing politician farts , thinking it will drop…
2/05/25
What's obvious has never changed.
I've been internally punishing myself by paying attention to the news as of late. I think this is my Mick Foley arc or something. His masochism is way cooler than me tuning into the 3 ring circle of hot blooded and numb in the skull world of redneck driven American politics. There's nothing worth posting about on that front. I onl…
2/04/25
Clown shoes, the whole lot.
The best way to remain clear on what actually matters to the world at large, is to remember that groundhogs day is a thing people take further than and serious species ever would. There's a rodent in Georga that adults have deemed "General Beauregard Lee". They built it a plantation home, and judging by the video I've se…
1/27/25
Look Down : I regulate the hands of my fate
Vacant Care by Christopher Jones All of societies most celebrated forms of media were conceived as being mere distractions. Radio and television only exist to sell ads . The shows have to hook viewers into sitting their butts down long enough to watch commercials. If they fail to get enough 👀 on the latest ☕ campaign or insurance push, they…
1/22/25
Planning the planning stage of Realm 128
I've developed a nasty habit of searching for information before actually putting any thoughts into figuring it out myself. This was the unforeseen side effect of using search engines for more than 20 years now . I don't blame Hotbot , Smack Jeeves , or Yahoo . I will most definitely blame Google , seeing as they would like us all to p…
1/17/25
Buttons are better than dpads or sticks
Having played emulated games on keyboard for so many years, I've come to the conclusion that my initial experiences with gaming were always nerfed due to a failure on the hardware makers side. that's not to say I'm faultless and would no doubt be the real life The Wizard, Staring Fred Savage of gaming if they saw the better wa…
1/13/25
Soloist
I'm observant enough to where I know when it's best to just ignore people. Two heads aren't always better. if neither know which way is up, you're pretty much fucked. You will be more likely to sink and drown in your tandem bad judgement due to a lack of basic understanding. What most fail to get about life is, this whole …
12/26/24
Shaman of the soul
When needed, the natural state of things will correct any perceived problems that may be experienced. There's never a need for fixing things by force. It will literally just work itself out. Now, does this mean you'll like it? It doesn't matter what you like. The majority of things you come in contact with will never actually …
12/24/24
Free flowing into Zen with a thought base.
For way too long I've been the slave of emotion. There was always some new issue popping up around ever corner. I've blown my life more than a few times, and what what exactly? Nothing I can see worth mentioning. When met with nothing but disappointment your entire life, one must seek a viable and sustainable change. Obviously th…
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